STEPS TO THAT SERIES - REFLECTIONS OF AN EGO I

STEPS TO THAT SERIES OVERVIEW

What goes in the mind of a mystic?

What is the internal world like for the one looking to die to all that they know for a taste of something more?

What are the driving forces in that consciousness?

In a modern reality with instant access to vast knowledge and teachers from around the world, the Seeker is now able to pursue the path from their own home.

In 2023, I reached the end of the road of a search for truth.

I could understand no more and learn no more as I was.

I felt that I had tasted enough of this life.

I had even tasted enough of a private world of spiritual and transcendental experiences.

I decided to put my search for seeking above even my own soul, my own self, my own knowledge, in order to find something more.

In May 2024, I had become comfortable enough in Awareness to decide to pursue a path to Awakening at any cost.

I found that the Masters did not answer my deeper burning questions.

What was it like for them before awakening?

They seem to have forgotten what it was like before.

The Masters seemed to have difficulty communicating the path to the students.

From their vantage point, it appears that they are often unable to communicate to the rest of us.

Which steps did they take to That?

Which steps did they take to their realization?

I decided that on my path, I would record a series of writings to capture the changes in this consciousness as I pursued That.

What was going through my mind?

What were the mental struggles this ego faced?

As I deepened in awareness, I began to watch the contents of my mind transform from a delusional, misguided, imaginative ego into a clear and distinctly realized human being.

I watched many others instead devolve further into their mental hallucinations and ideas of enlightened grandeur and higher states.

I knew that the path I and some others are on is not a “spiritual path,” but a practical one.

A path that would change my desires and perspectives over time.

A path that would lead to the dissolution of noise, in a world becoming more loud at a quadratic scale.

I recorded this inner transformation in a clear, easy to read format.

I’ve presented this book in the form of a  private diary of a nameless, faceless seeker.

STEPS TO THAT SERIES: REFLECTIONS OF AN EGO PART I

Reflections of an Ego captures the end of my ego’s knowing, my last conclusions before STEPS TO THAT takes place between May 2024 to January 2025.

Contains:

• Noticing the false narrative of change.
• Hot energy vs. cool energy.
• Dealing with shadow and stresses.
• What others ears are understanding.
• An alternate perspective on losing your life.
• The expense of self-convincing.
• Retained understanding.
• Reflection of Marcus Aurelius’ Meditation on Character.
• Consciousness as the Eternal Play.
• The attempt to be understood by others.
• How the desire to be heard changes.
  

What insights will you glean from peeking into this tiny book?

May this accelerate your own seeking and be with you along your own path.